Raiders of the Lost Spark

A birthday affirmation for you …

I am a spiritual being in a spiritual universe.

Source energy is around me, in me, and that essence in which I have my very being.

I am unified with God.

Because of my unity with God, my thoughts and prayers, both conscious and subconscious, shape my life experience.

As Jesus said, whatsoever I desire, when I pray, I believe that I have received it, and I will have it.

My prayer or affirmation is a seed or kernel which is planted in source energy and which manifests in my life as experience.

My desire is for perfect health, which includes overflowing strength and power and energy and perfect balance so that I can run and not be weary, I can walk and not faint, I can play and love and celebrate and dance and love and live and have energy and wholeness to spare.

I therefore speak my word and plant the seed and say the prayer and make the affirmation that this perfect health is mine now. I ignore the conditions around me and focus on the perfect health which is my present possession. I believe that I have received it.

I also speak my word that my belief and faith and consciousness is shaped by source energy to give me the health that I desire. If there is any confusion or wrong thinking, I affirm that it is replaced with clarity and perfect faith and understanding and the right consciousness of perfect health and well-being, which results in the health I desire.

I know that my word commands source energy, just as a CEO commands her employees. As a spiritual being, I sit in the cat-bird seat and my word is as powerful as the words that Jesus spoke. I am happy and excited and grateful that this is so, and I use this power for good and for the full living and enjoyment of life.

I give thanks for all that I have received and all that I am receiving and all the good that I see unfolding into my experience.

And so I know that it is done! I release my word into source energy and step back and let it go and know that my work is done. All I do now is receive that which I have prayed for and enjoy it! It is so because I say it is so, and SO IT IS!

Applewood

What an amazing and magical place to experience Celtic Reiki.

Blackstone Lake, Ontario

This past Thursday, I delivered a speech entitled “Eat, Pray, Love… Gratitude“. Inspired by the book Eat, Pray, Love, I was made aware of the parallels between the book and my own growth/development and chosen path in life.

Eat: Raw and living foods. Even though I am detoxing and relatively miserable at times, I know it’s a temporary state and I’m willing to push through it. The fact is: I am more concerned these days with what comes out of my mouth, rather than satisfying addictions going into it. I miss eating certain things, but I am enjoying and relishing the process and learning experiences that come with having to deal with one’s feelings head on… I can no longer eat them!

Pray: My growing involvement with church/activities. I am finding my new community to be loving, inspiring, and supportive. I’m happy to be a part of it. I am attending weekly service, as well as a Bible Study and Encounter Group. This is becoming an important part of my spiritual journey.

Love: My relationship. Am I really considering committing myself to someone with 2 young children? Am I willing to put aside most of the “me” to become a “we”. The answer is yes. I love him deeply and want to spend my life with him. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to say this – calmly, rationally, and without a drink or 5 2. Everything I am and will be, I want to share with him.

I eat. I pray. I love… 1 Cor 13:13b “But the greatest of these is love.”

I have a new vision of Jesus. Having been raised Catholic, the ceremony and rigidity of the mass left little to inspire me. It frightened me. It bored me. As an adult, it frightens me and bores me still. I want to be excited!!! Ever since I have been attending Evangelical Baptist services, I am excited because it feelings magical. Charismatics intrigue me and get my fire going. I’ve finally seen and feel the light so to speak. By this, I mean that my distaste for Catholicism drove me running and screaming from faith, into the seemingly different and “safe” world of the agnostics, atheists, and warm fuzzy new agers. I dabbled, I experimented, I wondered where I could fit it. At this point in my life, I have come to a new level of understanding, and a fresh perspective of looking at things. I still don’t know what I believe, but I do know that there is room for Jesus in there. With all of the other things I have opened the door to, opening the door to Christian concepts is not too far of a stretch at all. I (want to) believe in magic and miracles. Having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, from the Evangelical perspective, is about this magic and raising this fire and inspiration within.

Above, not below. I love the brilliance though!

At first I thought I was experiencing a starry night. Under a shimmering mass of points and light, I thought it was the evening sky. I realized then that it was a crystal cave. I was in one, once, in Bermuda. I was with someone else, but this time I was there alone. Being alone there was a combination of both calm and inspiring. I can’t believe it’s been over two years since I experienced my time of uncertainty: living from a bag, dating someone across the country, having no clear direction of my future. Yet, here I am now, fully trusting. Yes, I experience fear and uncertainty from time to time, but my inner wisdom tells me that I am on the right path for me. Often I feel brilliant and sparkling. I wake up in the morning and feel joy. I am (almost) always inspired throughout my day. In the evening, I am either beside my partner or have loving thoughts of him. I am going after what I want in this life without compromise. Everything is so bright and I am convinced of the direction. Despite the occasional want, I have little in the way of lack. If I had a crystal ball and tried to look into my future: I am convinced that everything is coming together in a miraculous way.

A number of years ago, I ordered some ACIM courses from www.pathwaysoflight.org. There is certainly a time and place for everything; the “right” time didn’t exist in the past. Now is the time. I am in a place of peace, joy, and contemplation. I contacted POL to see if I could be assigned another facilitator to complete my course work. One of the miracles I am expecting for the 2010 year is the completion of many things from my past. Completion, however, is not quite the correct word. There is a certain illusion in it. Is anything ever truly completed, or rather, is the path simply altered or extended?

I have been seeking the balance between intense/heavy thinking, and simple literary pleasure. Not that I would ever suggest D.J. Conway to be “simple”; rather, she writes and presents information in a way that is pure pleasure – intellectual candy for my cerebral sweet tooth! I have a number of her books sitting idle, purchasing them with the notion that their time would come. I am constantly striving for balance – without the desire or the willingness to ever go too far in one direction. Despite my new appreciation for the Christian faith, I will never rescind my love for spirituality and the earth religions. I strongly believe that synchronicity and symbiosis exists between them.. and almost everything.

Loosely X-posted to www.rockyourboatyoga.com

The Altered State of Silence

Kierkegaard, likely the greatest Protestant Christian mind of all time, said:
“If I could prescribe only one remedy for all the ills of the modern world, I would prescribe silence.“

I never used to enjoy silence. I always needed dialogue. This constant need often manifested in detrimental ways. Constant external dialogue left me in a state when I was also in a constant state of internal chatter. Quietly reflecting was akin to obsessing as I couldn’t stop the noise; I was unable to enter a state of contemplation without fixating. I attribute part of my current near-bliss state to embracing silence as a daily requirement. Yoga, meditation, contemplation. Despite the doctrine and dogma, this is one of the reasons I enjoy going to various church services. They provide the environment for me to enter this place of quiet reflection. With this practice comes an increase of patience, tolerance, understanding, and joy. Kierkegaard was certainly wise.

I am finally going to explore the Kalpa Bhadra Buddhist Centre in Guelph:

“Heart Jewel” with Lamrim meditation

The Heart Jewel sadhana together with meditation on the Lamrim ( Stages of the path to enlightenment ) is the daily practice of all Kadampa Buddhists. Engaging in this practice we receive the blessings of all enlightened beings. Through the power of these blessings we make progress in our practice of Lamrim. Heart Jewel practice is especially powerful to increase and protect our wisdom and with wisdom we can always solve our daily problems.