I recently lost my mom to cancer after a long, difficult three year battle. I watched the one person in my life I could trust with everything and love more than anything, go through painful procedures, get sick daily and endure three surgeries to remove organs riddles with cancer. To top off this horrific experience, I became pregnant the week she passed away and was forced to tell her over the phone as I raced back to the hospital, that she was going to be a grandmother just minutes before she passed.

What Next?

Angry, devastated and heart broken, I cried for days. The weird thing? I had total peace. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was only twelve and have always professed to be a Christian. Now, I had to live it. During the most unbelievably painful time of my life, as sad as I was, I could feel the “peace that passes all understanding” from Phillipians 4:7, that God promises in His Word. It is truly a struggle and spiritual battle of the human flesh and the sadness I felt against the overwhelming and undeniable promise and love from God.

Looking Back

Now that I have a child of my own, I look back at the last year and marvel at God’s grace. I KNOW that my mom is in Heaven and I KNOW that I will see her again and that continues to give me peace. Don’t get me wrong, there are moments when I lose it and ask God why He would take the one person I needed the most as I learn how to take care of this new life, but I always end up in the same place, back in His Word, where I find my peace.

Alexis Bonari is a freelance writer and blog junkie. She is currently a resident blogger at onlinedegrees.org, researching areas of online college degrees. In her spare time, she enjoys square-foot gardening, swimming, and avoiding her laptop.

Thank you, John Assaraf: The Answer

If I take that to heart and truly believe in it, would it not be reasonable to have the belief that (if considering the possibility that I brought on my fibromyalgia by my thoughts) that devoting my thoughts to removing it would be possible? It’s time to reflect on my faith… and reflect on the word itself. Do I have faith that I can reverse or remove my “condition”? I must!

“Devotion of thought to an honest achievement makes it possible.”

“What if with every thought you think, you are actually creating your present and future.” – Louise L. Hay

The first time I saw this amazing movie, I was with a wonderful group in Vancouver, Spring of 2008. When you wake up every morning to the scent of the sea, and a view of the majestic mountains, how can you not be inspired to watch spiritual movies? Furthermore, having my first introduction to Louise Hay in a soulfully beautiful environment only added to my interest in the concepts of which she speaks.

This weekend past, I invited some friends over for an evening of raw food and metaphysics and watched You Can Heal Your Life again. The thought that I still marinating over: “Am I really ready to change?” The answer is YES, I am willing to change!

Doreen Virtue’s book rank among my favourites – although I’ve ready and thoroughly enjoyed Healing with the Fairies, Angel Medicine, and Goddesses and Angels, I had yet to read their prequel, The Lightworker’s Way. Virtue shares many intimate details of her life growing up and describes her upbringing within the Christian Science tradition, the social struggle to “fit in” during her adolescent years, and her eventually journey to become a writer – one with a pan-spiritual view (blended of Christian Science, Religious Science, Eastern mysticism and spiritual principles). I certainly do not agree with all that Virtue proposes, but I have the utmost respect and admiration for her unwavering trust in herself – something which I certainly aspire.

Quotes

I have heard all of these before, but reading them again was a wonderful treasure for my mind – sometimes the memory just needs a little jog.

“So in life, some enter the services of fame and others of money, but the best choice is that of these few who spend their time in the contemplation of nature, and as lovers of wisdom.” – Pythagoras (570-490 BCE), “The Father of Philosophy”

“The Way out into the light often looks dark, The way that goes ahead often looks as if it went back.” – Tao Te Ching

“Life is something spiritual. The form may be destroyed; but the spirit remains and is living, for it is the subjective life.” – Paracelsus (1493-1541), alchemist and physician

“If spirits really exist, and if we all live in One Mind; and if mentality can communicate with mentality without the aid of the physical instrument, then spirit communication must be possible!” – Ernest Holmes, founder of The Church of Religious Science and author of The Science of Mind.