Raiders of the Lost Spark

Little Boshkung Lake, Minden Hills

“Peace that Passes All Understanding” is an Understatement

I recently lost my mom to cancer after a long, difficult three year battle. I watched the one person in my life I could trust with everything and love more than anything, go through painful procedures, get sick daily and endure three surgeries to remove organs riddles with cancer. To top off this horrific experience, I became pregnant the week she passed away and was forced to tell her over the phone as I raced back to the hospital, that she was going to be a grandmother just minutes before she passed.

What Next?

Angry, devastated and heart broken, I cried for days. The weird thing? I had total peace. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was only twelve and have always professed to be a Christian. Now, I had to live it. During the most unbelievably painful time of my life, as sad as I was, I could feel the “peace that passes all understanding” from Phillipians 4:7, that God promises in His Word. It is truly a struggle and spiritual battle of the human flesh and the sadness I felt against the overwhelming and undeniable promise and love from God.

Looking Back

Now that I have a child of my own, I look back at the last year and marvel at God’s grace. I KNOW that my mom is in Heaven and I KNOW that I will see her again and that continues to give me peace. Don’t get me wrong, there are moments when I lose it and ask God why He would take the one person I needed the most as I learn how to take care of this new life, but I always end up in the same place, back in His Word, where I find my peace.

Alexis Bonari is a freelance writer and blog junkie. She is currently a resident blogger at onlinedegrees.org, researching areas of online college degrees. In her spare time, she enjoys square-foot gardening, swimming, and avoiding her laptop.

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